In 2010, I want to change .. for the better. I want to learn not to let things get to me so much. I want to focus on school. I won’t let myself become dependent on just one person, or thing. I won’t focus totally on just one person, and I won’t neglect the ones who were always there. I don’t wanna play the fool, ever again. I want to learn not to trust so easily. I don’t wanna give & give & give, while all they do is take take take. I don’t want my obsessions to get out of hand. I wanna be real.. as real as it gets. I want to be that girl everyone loves, and looks up to. It seems like, every year I get closer to becoming this.. but at the end everything is just dead. I’m tired of games, I don’t like being played. My heart, is not exactly whole at the moment. My temporary high is over, but  don’t wanna be sober. But you don’t exactly care about me anymore.. do you?