People ask why I miss you, and how could I be so stupid? But I tell them, it’s cause he promised me forever. And you did. I admit, I did believe it. At fourteen years old, and somebody tells me they love me.. I’m gonna believe it. But no more, please. I don’t know what real love is anymore, I’m not even sure it’s definable. I played the foool for the longest time. I gave my everything to you, never appreciated. When you said you loved me, if you meant it, you wouldn’t have messed with other girls behind my back.. and deny it. You have this mentality that you’re so perfect, you’re a great guy. But you’re not. At least, not anymore. The sad thing though, is that you don’t care about me enough to protect my feelings, not in the slightest. It’s sad, cause one day I WAS your everything. Now it’s like I don’t even exist. Am I that easily forgettable? So replaceable? Do you remember the times when we didn’t have to try so hard to make everything right? When all that matter was US. You hurt me so badly, and I have every reason to hate you. But the thing is, I can’t. Even though you lied, you played me like the fool I was, and in everyone’s eyes you’re a cheater.. you’re too damn special. I have too many memories of you saying stuff like, “You’re in my heart like a prisoner”. Yeeeup I remember that. You used to go to Ikea with your fam, and imagine how our kids’ rooms would look like. You’d come visit everyday afterschool just to see me. You’d walk me all the way to the library. And to my old school. Long distances. You gave up basketball! You had the mentality of Ne-Yo, “Y’all go ahead, I think I’ma kick it with my girl today”. But now.. it feels like that’s NOTHING to you anymore. If you can forget, how am I supposed to trust any other guy now? I gave you my whole heart.. and maybe that was a mistake. Now you have a Chris Brown mindset - “Where can love take us now, we’ve been so far down”. WE could have reached the sky. But you gave up. Am I really not that worth it?